Mr. Right

always looked for him in all the wrong places,

made the right choices with all the strange faces,

just with one phone call,

i knew there was something very special 

about everything you said to me,

now i find myself saying I Do.

i want...

i want... time
i want... love
i want... peace
i want... home
i want... wedding
i want... laughter

mid-night conversations
hot coffee
new places
children
music
flirtations
flowers

i want... laughter
i want... wedding
i want... home
i want... peace
i want... love
i want... time

my first love...

they are right when they say that your first love is the most beautiful experience of your life. We were best friends before we turned into lovers. I was 13 and spent every single minute with my friend during the really hot summer vacations, the day started with breakfast at my place as mom would leave and the house would be empty. All my friends would land at my place and our day of fun would begin with some food and board games, cards, spin the bottle..you name it and we played it.

This new girl moved to our locality and all the boys went gaga over her…even my best friend. He started visiting her more often than me! My jealously hit new heights and pushed me to confess my feelings to him. To my pleasant surprise he reciprocated my feelings! Yippee I was in love *smiley*

During the 2 years that we were together, we went out on an official date not more than 4 times…watched titanic with him! I started getting bored of the compulsion of calls, meeting and have-to-have-to talk situations! This is the time when DJ walked into my life, he was much older than I was, more exciting than my first love…so I got swayed only to find my first love finding about everything I had been up to and breaking up with me. I apologized but it dint change anything…I had lost my love…my best friend…

Little did I know then that he would always be a part of my life, every time I needed something or someone I found him standing just around the corner waiting for me.

Our friendship is 13 years old now…he’s getting married soon…he’s found a girl who I don’t approve off, but guess its his life and he is entitled to make his own mistakes…all I can do is wish him luck *smiley*. Our friendship is now just a call or occasionally bumping at family parties…but I still hold him close to my heart… learnt how to love intensely from you…

made a plan to meet him again...

thought it would be a good idea...

while driving i got a call from home....

what i heard was bad news...

life changed in a blink of an eye...

i never got the chance to say goodbye...

he lay there peacefully...

while we all sobbed and cried...

today i finally get the chance to think about him and smile...

life will never be the same and i cannot deny...

i tear up again...dint realise i was so close to him...

you meant a lot to me...

wish you were here....

hope you are in a good place...

i still miss you

Its unbelievable but I still miss u... I want to call you but I know that I shouldn't, its the best for me... For you...

Doesn't remind me of anything!

I walk the streets of Japan till I get lost
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
With a graveyard tan carrying a cross
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I like studying faces in a parking lot
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I like driving backwards in the fog
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything

The things that I've loved the things that I've lost
The things I've held sacred that I've dropped
I won't lie no more than you can bet
I don't want to learn what I'll need to forget

I like gypsy moths and radio talk
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I like gospel music and canned applause
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I like colorful clothing in the sun
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I like hammering nails and speaking in tongues
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything

The things that I've loved the things that I've lost
The things I've held sacred that I've dropped
I won't lie nor more than you can bet
I don't want to learn what I'll need to forget

Bend and shape me
I love the way you are
Slow and sweetly
Like never before
Calm and sleeping
We won't stir up the past
So discreetly
We won't look back

The things that I've loved the things that I've lost
The things I've held sacred that I've dropped
I won't lie nor more than you can bet
I don't want to learn what I'll need to forget

I like throwing my voice and breaking guitars
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I like playing in the sand what's mine is ours
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything

Heaven's Dead

anchor the night, open the sky
hide in the hours before sunrise
pray for me not, i wont lose sight
of where i belong, and where you lie

heaven's dead when you get sad
see your wishes fly
out of time
for the best time you've had

shipwreck the sun, i'm on your side
an army of one, onward we'll ride
and whisper your songs, birds to the air
we'll bury all of our burdens there

best time you had
for the best time you had
heaven's dead when you get sad

i'll take it all, arrows of guns
hundreds or more to save you from one
save you from one
and where i'll be
heaven's dead when you get sad