they are right when they say that your first love is the most beautiful experience of your life. We were best friends before we turned into lovers. I was 13 and spent every single minute with my friend during the really hot summer vacations, the day started with breakfast at my place as mom would leave and the house would be empty. All my friends would land at my place and our day of fun would begin with some food and board games, cards, spin the bottle..you name it and we played it.
This new girl moved to our locality and all the boys went gaga over her…even my best friend. He started visiting her more often than me! My jealously hit new heights and pushed me to confess my feelings to him. To my pleasant surprise he reciprocated my feelings! Yippee I was in love *smiley*
During the 2 years that we were together, we went out on an official date not more than 4 times…watched titanic with him! I started getting bored of the compulsion of calls, meeting and have-to-have-to talk situations! This is the time when DJ walked into my life, he was much older than I was, more exciting than my first love…so I got swayed only to find my first love finding about everything I had been up to and breaking up with me. I apologized but it dint change anything…I had lost my love…my best friend…
Little did I know then that he would always be a part of my life, every time I needed something or someone I found him standing just around the corner waiting for me.
Our friendship is 13 years old now…he’s getting married soon…he’s found a girl who I don’t approve off, but guess its his life and he is entitled to make his own mistakes…all I can do is wish him luck *smiley*. Our friendship is now just a call or occasionally bumping at family parties…but I still hold him close to my heart… learnt how to love intensely from you…
made a plan to meet him again...
thought it would be a good idea...
while driving i got a call from home....
what i heard was bad news...
life changed in a blink of an eye...
i never got the chance to say goodbye...
he lay there peacefully...
while we all sobbed and cried...
today i finally get the chance to think about him and smile...
life will never be the same and i cannot deny...
i tear up again...dint realise i was so close to him...
you meant a lot to me...
wish you were here....
hope you are in a good place...
In life you get to this place where nothing matters, not because you don’t care…but there is nothing important to matter… I find myself in a place like this…where nothing matters yet everything is fragile…the world is very fragile to be untrue. Life is very short for lies. And I don’t want to waste my heart.
As the film ended my friend said to me, "sabko sab kuch mil
The film was highly predictable and I found myself guessing the entire storyline shot by shot rather correctly but this dint stop the film from becoming a mind blowing experience for me.
Each and every person who has ever been a part of any sports team will be able to connect with the film. The highs and lows are beautifully orchestrated through out the film. it was a no- drama film, even in films like Lagaan and Swades there were moments when i turned and said puhleez! But this film thankfully dint give me a reason. During the interval i said a little prayer wishing that the director of the film would be able to keep it together like in the first half...and he did! To sum up the story in the first half the 16 girls (who BTW look and talk like real players) learn to be a team and then in the 2nd half they play for their team.
The inter, intra team rivalries have been depicted really well.
I left the hall with a really nice feeling. The crowd cheered, cried for the Indian Hockey team and found comfort in their win.
Everything in the film happened for a reason - even the release date of the film. Everyone seemed to forget the unfortunate exit of the Indian Cricket team earlier this year...The film rocked! Chak De
its been a while since i have put something up here... life just took a complete U-turn! Work, out of all the things in life is rocking! (in a good way) rest everything else seems to be on the back burner.
Lots has changed since i wrote the last post...lost some friends and family, lovers too! But gained much more in terms of self discovery.
the biggest revelation for me is to realise that I am mentally single! Yes all these years when I have been struggling with relationships, trying to row the boat against the current! To be able to realise this has been a blessing…I enjoy being single…being able to do what I feel like, not being answerable to anyone…the feeling is just awesome!
Someone once told me –
Be careful what you wish for coz you might get it all…
I wish for it to be true…
My wish list…
a smile, mountains, a close friend, a lover for the night, late night conversations, stolen kisses, family trips, red shoes, polka dots, a surprise party, free phone calls, films, rock concert, skinny dipping, rainy night, guitar, hand written letters, fist fights, French tips, contradictions…
While having dinner last night I noticed how I would instinctively save the best thing on my plate for last. Light bulb moment: started wondering if life does that to you too. It serves all the crap in the beginning only to serve the best last. You might think im just being highly optimistic, but when I look back at life- it’s only gotten better!
Take for example the guys I’ve dated, I would be really embarrassed to be seen with some of them in public now! But they only got better…the last one was a bomb, a nuclear bomb!
The days of the week also work on the same analogy, Mondays being the worst…but it only gets better. Come weekend and voila you are partying!
Life is like a 3 course meal – a starter to work you up, main course to satisfy you hunger and the dessert always to be served last! That’s no co-incidence – the best things in life are always to be had or experienced after you’ve gone through the not so great experiences. So every time life throws shit at you, know that it’s only going to get better and like everything else…this too shall pass!
