Wednesday, October 14, 2009

made a plan to meet him again...

thought it would be a good idea...

while driving i got a call from home....

what i heard was bad news...

life changed in a blink of an eye...

i never got the chance to say goodbye...

he lay there peacefully...

while we all sobbed and cried...

today i finally get the chance to think about him and smile...

life will never be the same and i cannot deny...

i tear up again...dint realise i was so close to him...

you meant a lot to me...

wish you were here....

hope you are in a good place...

Sunday, August 30, 2009

i still miss you

Its unbelievable but I still miss u... I want to call you but I know that I shouldn't, its the best for me... For you...

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Doesn't remind me of anything!

I walk the streets of Japan till I get lost
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
With a graveyard tan carrying a cross
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I like studying faces in a parking lot
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I like driving backwards in the fog
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything

The things that I've loved the things that I've lost
The things I've held sacred that I've dropped
I won't lie no more than you can bet
I don't want to learn what I'll need to forget

I like gypsy moths and radio talk
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I like gospel music and canned applause
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I like colorful clothing in the sun
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I like hammering nails and speaking in tongues
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything

The things that I've loved the things that I've lost
The things I've held sacred that I've dropped
I won't lie nor more than you can bet
I don't want to learn what I'll need to forget

Bend and shape me
I love the way you are
Slow and sweetly
Like never before
Calm and sleeping
We won't stir up the past
So discreetly
We won't look back

The things that I've loved the things that I've lost
The things I've held sacred that I've dropped
I won't lie nor more than you can bet
I don't want to learn what I'll need to forget

I like throwing my voice and breaking guitars
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I like playing in the sand what's mine is ours
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything

Friday, April 3, 2009

Heaven's Dead

anchor the night, open the sky
hide in the hours before sunrise
pray for me not, i wont lose sight
of where i belong, and where you lie

heaven's dead when you get sad
see your wishes fly
out of time
for the best time you've had

shipwreck the sun, i'm on your side
an army of one, onward we'll ride
and whisper your songs, birds to the air
we'll bury all of our burdens there

best time you had
for the best time you had
heaven's dead when you get sad

i'll take it all, arrows of guns
hundreds or more to save you from one
save you from one
and where i'll be
heaven's dead when you get sad

Saturday, April 5, 2008

Hmmmmmm

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Monday, October 22, 2007

a year older...

When you look back and it doesn't bring tears to your eyes,
whether tears of joy or sorrow,
consider the year wasted!

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

life...

In life you get to this place where nothing matters, not because you don’t care…but there is nothing important to matter… I find myself in a place like this…where nothing matters yet everything is fragile…the world is very fragile to be untrue. Life is very short for lies. And I don’t want to waste my heart.