a year older...

When you look back and it doesn't bring tears to your eyes,
whether tears of joy or sorrow,
consider the year wasted!

life...

In life you get to this place where nothing matters, not because you don’t care…but there is nothing important to matter… I find myself in a place like this…where nothing matters yet everything is fragile…the world is very fragile to be untrue. Life is very short for lies. And I don’t want to waste my heart.

sooner or later

Sooner or later,
when you look back on everything,
would you just laugh?
like you knew what all was happening...
Someday you might listen to what people have to say,
but right now you gonna learn it the hard way!

Chak De India!

As the film ended my friend said to me, "sabko sab kuch mil gaya"! Man! Rather Woooman!
The film was highly predictable and I found myself guessing the entire storyline shot by shot rather correctly but this dint stop the film from becoming a mind blowing experience for me.

Each and every person who has ever been a part of any sports team will be able to connect with the film. The highs and lows are beautifully orchestrated through out the film. it was a no- drama film, even in films like Lagaan and Swades there were moments when i turned and said puhleez! But this film thankfully dint give me a reason. During the interval i said a little prayer wishing that the director of the film would be able to keep it together like in the first half...and he did! To sum up the story in the first half the 16 girls (who BTW look and talk like real players) learn to be a team and then in the 2nd half they play for their team.
The inter, intra team rivalries have been depicted really well.

I left the hall with a really nice feeling. The crowd cheered, cried for the Indian Hockey team and found comfort in their win.

Everything in the film happened for a reason - even the release date of the film. Everyone seemed to forget the unfortunate exit of the Indian Cricket team earlier this year...The film rocked! Chak De India!

life changes in a blink of an eye!

its been a while since i have put something up here... life just took a complete U-turn! Work, out of all the things in life is rocking! (in a good way) rest everything else seems to be on the back burner.

Lots has changed since i wrote the last post...lost some friends and family, lovers too! But gained much more in terms of self discovery.

the biggest revelation for me is to realise that I am mentally single! Yes all these years when I have been struggling with relationships, trying to row the boat against the current! To be able to realise this has been a blessing…I enjoy being single…being able to do what I feel like, not being answerable to anyone…the feeling is just awesome!

My favourite post....once again!

I miss you...

She asked me for a cold drink
I ran to the kitchen to fetch her one
I was back in no time only to find her gone…lost forever…
The last thing she asked me for… I couldn’t get it to her in time…
I will always miss her smile. Smile, when she was in pain. Smile, when she saw me…
Smile…smile…smile…that’s all I remember…
I was too young to understand
But could feel the loss – of her smile!

The phone rang
He told me he had a surprise for me.
I was excited, promised I’ll see him over the weekend.

The phone rang again…I rushed to answer, ask about the surprise
It wasn’t him…he would never call again…was he angry with me?
I was hurt; I knew I would miss him and the surprise I never got
I forgot to tell him how much I loved him;
Will he know how much I love him?

She was expecting.
I was excited. A new born was coming!
He came into this world with complications. The tiniest little thing I had ever seen.
I couldn’t touch him.
He needed to rest.
He went off to sleep, never to open his eyes…
I will miss what we could have had…the bond that was broken too early…

I got the news… He’s not well
I wonder if I’ll see him again, I really want to but can I face another loss?
I have to tell him how much I care, how much he means to me, how much I’ll miss him…
I don’t want this to end…

i wish for

Someone once told me –

Be careful what you wish for coz you might get it all…

I wish for it to be true…

My wish list…

a smile, mountains, a close friend, a lover for the night, late night conversations, stolen kisses, family trips, red shoes, polka dots, a surprise party, free phone calls, films, rock concert, skinny dipping, rainy night, guitar, hand written letters, fist fights, French tips, contradictions…